I hate 26th March week!

I have got no reason for this blog posting today. Am just in a super foul mood, that everything which I come across is just such a huge turn-off to me. Be it people, emails, phone calls, conference calls, food.... everything I come in contact with this whole week is just plain BAD.

Getting cornered early in the morning is an ARSE. Having people commenting that you look so angry early in the morning, is another ARSE too. Is that any of that person's concern? It's my day, my face, my facial expression, my mood... who the hell are you to ask why am I so angry early in the morning?

I just love to contort my facial expressions! So what?

Observation - 23rd March 2012

I find it hilarious when waiters stare unbelievingly at me, when I ordered for 2 plates of food. They even have the cheek to ask me if it's for one or 2 person. I don't find it insulting, but instead, i find his reaction and response humorous. I am certain he didn't mean to be insulting, when I said it's for myself. I even rubbed my growling stomach and cheekily told him that I am hungry...

Hahaha... This is one of the perils of eating out alone, when you are having a HUGE appetite!

Bon appetite~

Observation - 13th March

"Here we go round the Mulberry bush, the mulberry bush, the mulberry bush, Here we go round the Mulberry bush, the humpty dumpty officer" - When I was young, I used to sing this rhyme when I ride on the merry-go-round. Merry-go-rounds are horrifying, because it makes you dizzy, but I love the sensation of seeing everything around you twirling like there's no tomorrow.

This brings me to my observation of today. It's no surprise to see why the suicide rates are soaring. When faced with problems, they are faced with no one to go to. Even though they take the initiative on their own to reach out to people, sadly no one is willing to extend you a helping hand. Instead, you are scolded, criticised, laughed at, and even belittled by those who are supposed to be your guardian angel. Or if not, they send you off on a wild goose chase knowing very well that you will not accomplish it, because there is no goose to be chased in the first place.

People like this.. I believe they get a kick out of seeing you going all out, to many places, many different people, asking, begging for information and not getting any. You are a former reflection of who he/she was. And since he/she didn't get it easy last time, why should they make it easy for you?! If they can survive it, why not you?

The suicide and going on a wild goose chase example may seem out of place, but the fundamentals of my example are:

*Consequences; be it positive or negative can be the result of one individual / a collaborative act*

I was sent on an official wild goose chase 2 weeks ago and finally, the chase has proven its worth. However, during the empty-handed period, I felt like I was standing at the edge of a cliff.. the sharp precipice... I was like an unbalanced weight... ready to tip anytime. Everthing else seemed immaterial. No words could describe the frustration, the pent-up anger, the disappointment, the irony of life. Thank god for perseverance and belief in one's own confidence. I finally got it sorted out.

I will never understand what goes on in the minds of people who have chosen the easy way out of life, but I think I do understand the complicated feelings which lead them on that journey.

Observation - 7th March

I notice people nowadays are overreacting to unintentional remarks. Ie. A is rushing off to somewhere and B comes along to ask something which requires proper explanation. A made a brash and blunt remark, as time does not permit him to be all-long-winded. B ends up feeling hurt because A had acted in a very rude manner.

Under such circumstances, I don't think it's fair to put the whole blame on B. Neither on A too. B should have realised that A is rushing off somewhere, and that the remark was unintentional. A should have instead stop B in her steps and tell B that "I would talk to you later".

What I don't understand is why are we taking things to the extreme? There should always be room / margin for error. What happen to the word "Benefit of Doubt"?! Don't they realize that humans are imperfect? Everybody has a temper, they have their good and bad days, they have their own faults.. is it wrong that it gets out in public sometimes?

No wonder public outbursts are so common nowadays. Setting exacting standards on oneself is good. But, it's improper to impose such exacting standards on others too.

*Sigh*

Shooting yourself in the foot

Life is difficult enough, with the prices of ALL things ever on the increase. So, tell me, why are there some people hell-bent on crating a life of misery for you?

It is ironic when we are seeing messages and articles on how to live life simply. Clear out the clutter, and look for ways to simplify... Sadly, the reality is not reflective of this message...
If I can get to Sri Petaling LRT in 3 minutes VS getting to Sri Petaling LRT in 10 minutes, why should I be instructed to take the 10 minute route? It is RIDICULOUS! Funny thing is, people actually have the cheek to point out to you and say "Hey, you should take the 10 min route, even though I know it does not make sense to waste an additional 7 minutes"..

Bless me for having a high level of tolerance towards such lame answer...